Dude, you are so great~~car and girl~~~

 

hehe

 

cheers~~~~~~

wot the hell is going on with me

fuck the shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Guys,i need to strive~~~

 

no more big dreams, back to the reality

 

you are the only one who know about yourself

 don't live in the illusion

 

work hard!

 

GMAT~~i will conquer you!

Once Mingfei told me that he wanted to refresh himself when i were in LA. i was amazed. such a young man, with good confidence, school grade, bright future, why he needed to refresh. but now i really know why. there will always be some adversities through out every one's life. So i went to my cousin's to refresh myself. his wife and him gave birth to a little baby girl 4 months ago! she is so cute!! big eyes, lovely cured hair, and the murmuring. looking at the baby girl, i found the long lost happiness and smile.

 

with the smile back to me, i finally calm down myself to think about all the things happened recently.

first of all, about my love~~

who ever has heard of my stuff would definitely feel shock at first and rediculous then. i don't want to talk about who sould be responsible for that. i only want to write down my views. to some degree, i have some frault ,indeed. i should have cared her more when she was in BJ. a girl, living in a brand new environment, need more care and love then ever. however, i didn't , not even displayed more. maybe i am too confident about our relation and too confident about my self. naive~~

secondly, i should have noticed something wrong! her attitude towards me changed significantly. i should have inferred something from that long before. so foolish i am~~

 

thirdly~~~~~

 

i do have a lot to write, but constrained by my english level, i can't finish the task~~~

 

what i really want to say is that " there is no right or wrong when regarding to LOVE"

while it make great sense to the some, it's just a piece of story for others

 

 

 

we are the only two person who have been involved in it and who have contributed to the happy memories 

maybe it's the destiny

what ever

i bless you sincerely, care about you if i can, help you  if you want me to, be your best friend if i can and you wish

 

maybe it's the end of the old relation, but definitely the begin of another

another relation with you

another relation with others

since i came back to China, nothing good has happened to me~~

 

depressed, frustrated,destroyed mentally again and again~what the hell is the world doing?

 

you are great~i can't do anything to change anything so far

 

whatsoever

 

i will stand up again, no matter when

i will success one day, no matter how long it will take, maybe the lifetime

 

spending the first 30 yrs of my life to learn the profound meaning of the world and nature

the next 20 yrs to reach the summit

and the last part of my life to pay back and contribute to the society

 

great dream, and i am really a big dreamer, sometimes even live in the dream, and become unfamiliar with the solid true earth and life

 

quoted:"I don't think it's a bad idea to have a goal and dream to run after, even though when it becomes true it is not as perfect as we have expected. Success comes from ambition, and ambition requires us be kind of blind sometimes, blind to see whether it is worth that much effort."

 

salute to all my friends and those who care about me~~all your comforts make great sense to me. in the passed few days, i found the long-forgotten happiness by talking, drinking with me. they are my most valuable memories now. they mean a lot to me, for, recently, i never laugh even in the dream.